I know that it's painful...

I didn't expect that you will tell me that.
I didn't expect that it happened to me.
I really didn't know that~

You are brave enough to say that and I knowthat it's not an easy task for you.
I know that you need a lot of encouragement and I appreciate it~
I admit that you are a good guy with good personalities.

However, I still acts cruel to you and gave you an answer:
"No.."

Sorry~
My heart is occupied by someone~

*Luan*

Ice Kacang Puppy Love~

Yer~
I thought that I can watch this lovely movie today...
In the end, all the tickets in Mid Valle and Pavillion SOLD OUT!!!
I was quite disappointed nah >_<
I don't care!!!
I swear that I will watch this SWEET movie SOON~
Even during study break... Hehehe :p

Since I can't watch the movie, I prepared lunch and dinners for my beloved housemates.
Although they didn't complain anything about my dishes,
I don't think it is GOOD enough!!!
The dishes taste a bit different from my mum's dishes V_V
But I can't figure out what is the 'deficiency'!!!
It's time for me to brush up my cooking skill again ^^

I found out something~
I don't know when it started~
I just know that it starts quietly and unintentionally~
.: I'm officially missing you, JX~ :.


*Luan*

End of Semester TWO

I can't believe that today is the last day in Semester 2.
Time passes by us so fast!
What did I do during this period?
Study...
Dance...
Play...
Though there is presence of stress, disappointment, upset and frustration,
I still enjoy my everydays ^^
We should be grateful that we still have everyday even though your everyday is the same...

Well, now is the study break for me to prepare for the EOS!
I have promised my parents that I will try my very best to get 3.5 CGPA...
But I'm scared that I can't make it V_V
Haiz... Just try my very very best lah~

*Luan*

Relief~

I just finished another class test today.
I think I'm quite ok with the result ^_<
After that, Mei Yeng and I went to redeem our nutritious food from the N&D seniors.
Actually, that is their semester project where they need to sell their product to us.
And marks will be given by their lecturers based on their earning, service as weel as FOOD!

The feeling after the finishing the test is so nice~
Although the EOS is coming soon V_V
But I don't care >_<
Just enjoy this moment first ^^

I received a call from my mum just now.

"Your daddy doesn't have colon cancer!"

Yeah!!!
I was so happy when I heard about that ^o^
On the other hands, my grandpa also just completed his op.
The op is very successful!!!
Just that he needs to stay in hospital for a few days...

Hmmmm~~
Everything is alright now...
No more worry...
No more disturbance...
It's the time for me to concentrate on my revision!

*Luan*

Back to the starting point~

Recently, I retake part in Tzu Chi activities.
Honestly, I feel like joining Tzu Chi activities is really time consuming!
Everytime, I need to spend almost half day for a particular activity.
Especially during exam season and assignment season T_T
I really don't have the mood to enjoy it~
Perhaps that is my own problem- unable to manage my time properly.

Until last Sunday, I have changed my mind...
Actually, I'm quite lost during these two weeks~
Reports... Assignments... Class tests..
All come to me in one slot!!!
And also my father's and grandpa's health problem~
I really down and feel so depressed sometime, especially when I'm alone...
Thanks to Tzu Chi activities, it makes me feel better-er~
At least I know that, at this moment, I'm a lucky girl ^^

I went to the Sungai Buluh Leprosy Center to be volunteer of the day.
And I'm glad that I was there!!!
I really learnt a lot from those Gong Gong and Po Po.
They are my real life model~

Being a listener to someone, they can feel the presence of themselves.
Giving someone a big warm smile and hug, they will know that you care about them.

Yesterday, I joined another Tzu Chi programme- Xin Ya Jiao Yu Fu Dao Ji Hua.
I'm introduced to a ten-years-old little boy by shi gu.
And I'll be his tuition teacher for all the time~
It sounds like teaching but it is not~
We are not just giving them knowledge but at the same time,
We do need to try our best to show our concern and care to them.
I believe that every child has the equal chance to gain knowlegde~
Every child has their own cleverness~
It is just the matter of how they use it...

While I was teaching the little boy,
I had the feeling that I'm taeching my little brother~
And again, I miss my little brother...

*Luan*

Don't take him away from me~

开心的乐谱已划上了句号。
现在的我正被伤心的旋律包围着...


我只希望他能没事!
或许是我太悲观...
再怎么乐观的我都无法说服我自己:
他一定没事的~

担心... 担心... 担心...
我真的很替他担心~
从接到璇打来的电话后,
我的脑子里不断出现负面的画面~
我尝试让自己忙...
做reports, 温习功课...
可是我只是在瞎忙!


朋友问我是否有哭。
我说，目前为止, 我只是处于担心...
因为我相信他一定会没事的!


"爸爸, 希望你会没事~"
这是我流着眼泪给与爸爸的祈祷...


*Luan*

Sweet & Happy melody

Here I come..
Come back with a happy mode~
Why am I happy?
Because I see my friends have their happy ending ^^

~LY & KM~
I'm really happy for you both!!!

Fate is weird >_<
It comes silently..
As the same time, it fades off consciously...
Can it stay forever between the He and She?
Am I to greedy to have this kind of thought?
Perhaps I'm not...

Looking apart from the sweet melody,
I'm scared of one thing...
I'm scared that it will happen again...
I'm scared that I can't withstand the pain again...
I'm sure that I will never get the ability to immune it~
Will it happen again?
There's countless of possibles...
I can't change the futere...
But at least I can change myself~
Just get my part done
and the rest...

Just let it be~

*Luan*